Why do you speak of a Heavenly Father if you do not have one?  You do!  Why do you speak of Father-Mother God?  For this Source that breathes you is all of that:  masculine and feminine, which are merely opposite aspects of Life.  This concept of having an earthly mother and father and a heavenly mother-father is the ultimate duality!  Pay attention here:  do you see the two levels?  This earthly life which has you all twisted up in knots at times is not all there is.  You are a soul playing a role.  Do not forget this when caught up in the drama.  Your heavenly father-mother is not separate from you.  We need not go back to all of the basics here.  The soul knows who and what you are.  Shift back and forth in your awareness between the two worlds when it becomes challenging to hold your awareness in a state of integration, for ultimately you are all of That.  Ultimately, choose peace, for it lies always within and without the duality.