You don’t have to prove anything to anyone.  Not even to yourself.  Just show up.  That’s what your soul does every moment.  The soul is always there within you.  How can it be otherwise?  You are that light.  The challenges in your life come when you forget this and you identify with the body, the story, and all of its inherent drama instead of identifying with the light and love that burn ever within you.  Feel not bad for this habit, merely recognize it for being simply that:  habit.  These habitual ways of thinking and acting can be overcome through desire and commitment and practice.  Why bother?  Got peace?  Got love?  Got freedom?  You will forgive our poor grammar to make a point.  Peace, love, and freedom are your birthright as a soul.  Claim them now as you turn up the light within.  Not to prove anything, but to fulfill your soul’s purpose.