“Why do I repeat the
same mistakes again and again?  It is
like banging my head against a wall.” 
Again, it comes back to the difference between ego and spirit.  You are both of these at once.  It is merely a matter of which aspect of the
self you are allowing to take precedence.

When you hit a wall
repeatedly or encounter difficulties, this is a sign that you are out of
alignment with your spirit.  The lessons
will continue to be attention-getting in a painful way until you recognize
this.  Pain serves a purpose.  Were there no pain, you would not learn.  Some people have a greater tolerance for
pain, and thus take a while longer to learn. 
Others need merely a slight prick of the finger to open the eyes and
say, “I remember (that I am spirit)!  I
surrender my (ego’s) need to do and have things the way I (as ego) think they
should be.  Now please guide me to a
healthier, safer way of being.”
 
As you surrender and
align with Spirit, your life will flow. 
Things will fall into place painlessly.  
If you still feel emotional pain as a result of your choices, please
examine your thoughts, for this could be ego resisting changes that are in your
best interest.  Always, always let the
heart be your guide.  It speaks Truth,
even if you do not always want to hear it.