There are certain things you are not supposed to know.  Could it be that you are being
protected?  You understand the saying, “For
your own good,” and yet you keep digging, digging, digging.  Could there be a reason that what you are
trying so hard to uncover remains hidden or unknown?  What would happen if you were to surrender
and realize that you need not know everything? 
What if you were to trust there was a reason?  Why then, ego would be quite unhappy, for he
did not get his way, but you might find that in giving up your insistence you
find out exactly what you needed to know all along.