Do you not awake some mornings more groggy than others?  Do you not have to work a bit hard to shake off the cobwebs?  Yet, other mornings you open your eyes and are ready to take on the world with vigor and alertness.  This is analogous to the spiritual path.  You wonder why you cannot and do not maintain the same level of “awareness” from moment to moment after you realize the deepest truths of your existence.  Energy flows in cycles.  You are a mixture of many fields of energy-consciousness flowing and interacting.  There will be blockages and openings of awareness, but once you taste your True Nature as an emanation of Pure Being, you will know the difference between awake and asleep.  From there, it is up to you to choose your point of view from moment to moment.  You are so very loved.