What does it mean to surrender?  Do you give it meaning, as in, “Surrendering shows weakness.”?  What if you knew that by surrendering all meaning, you are allowing in a Force that is all-powerful to guide you, lead you, show you the way?  What if in giving things no meaning, you were picked up by the strongest of currents and carried to a place of peace?  What if in giving no-thing any meaning, you simply came along for the experience and allowed your soul to learn and grow in being what it is:  Love in expression?  Do you need to hit rock bottom before you surrender?  That is up to the ego.  The soul is ready now.  You are so very loved.