There will be times when you feel disconnected from your higher self no matter how long you sit in the silence, no matter how wide you open your energy centers.  Some things you cannot control.  Everything goes in cycles. There is far more to the cycles of the moon and planets and nature than you may be aware.  Keep up your practices and do not give up when your guides and connections seem far away.  They have not gone anywhere.  The signal at times seems to come and go, but love never dims—only your awareness of it.