Guided always.  That is what you are.  You think they are all “my” thoughts.  What if you were to shift your point of view to the state where all Consciousness is united, not apparently separate as it may seem to you now?  Then “my” thoughts would be “My” thoughts, arising from the same “C” of Consciousness from which the Cosmos arises!  “But what of those thoughts that hold me back and are repetitive?”  Those are going round and round like a whirlpool in the stream of Consciousness.  Cease trying to control thought.  You cannot.  Cease kicking.  Breathe slowly, and you will find yourself drifting to the calm center.  Here you will hear helpful guidance, if you will listen for that which is unique and beneficial.  You are not alone, and you are so very loved.

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