And so, you are not perfect.  You acted very human, and you are filled with regrets.  It wasn’t just one thing.  It was a veritable cascade of human behaviors.  Did anyone get hurt?  Perhaps.  Welcome to being human.  And now you are doing a very good job of judging yourself.  You cannot seem to forgive yourself.  What to do?  Remind yourself that this is how the human learns.  In fact, you learn best from your transgressions.  What means this word, “transgression”?  A traveling away from … going beyond … and that is why you are feeling remorse:  you traveled away from your true nature as Love.  You cannot escape this Love, for it is your Source.  You simply forgot yourself for a while.  It happens to the human.  Please put yourself back in awareness of your Higher Self sitting in that higher perspective watching your human choices and behavior.  Your Higher Self is now shaking its head and saying about your transgressions, “Well, that didn’t work.”

Yes, indeed.  That did not work to extend love.  And through those trials and subsequent errors, you learned.  Will you do it again?  Perhaps, as long as you forget the Higher Self and focus on the story, but most likely not, for pain is an excellent learning tool.  Forgive yourself for being human.  Make amends, and make love your top priority.