New beginnings begin every moment.  And so, you messed up.  You can tread water for a while, working hard to stay in that muddied water and relive your mistake as the victim of your ignorance, or you can let go and get back into the flow, a bit more aware, perhaps a bit sullied, but changed yet again.  Life is messy.  You don’t escape it without some bumps and bruises, but as long as you continue to search for the main current and allow yourself to be carried along by Love you will not remain stuck or drown.  In the end, there is no death, only rebirth, so why not emerge now and now and now into Awareness?  You are so very loved.