Stare at a white screen and close your eyes, and what do you see?  A black screen.  Both exist as patterns.  Both are equal and opposite.  You have just as much potential in you for darkness as light at this level of experience, but all arises from a field of Awareness that is pure potential.  Do not eschew the darkness.  It has much to teach you.  Experience how it feels to make choices that are aligned with the light verses those that are aligned with darkness.  It is that simple to live a life of more joy:  by being aware.  You have the potential to experience everything and anything as far as thoughts and emotions, yet by the grace of free will, you get to choose how much light you mine from the gold field. You are so very loved.