You could not handle the fullness of the Light that breathes you were it to fill you all at once whilst in a physical body.  It would knock you to the ground like a bolt of lightning, yet you would still exist.  You seek awakening, but know that you are given what you can handle as you are able.  Little by little, through your intention, the highest of motives, and by grace, the Light pours in, allowing you to be a bearer of this most precious of gifts.  Shine your light brightly upon others and enjoy the process as the body adjusts to the intensity of the Love-Light that fills all and is all that is.  Setbacks may cause you to feel that the light has gone out, but it cannot, for at another level, you are the Light.  Never forget this.

You are so very loved.